My Pseudonym - Fion Paris Jackson

It really amused me because in the past few days, I received a few inbox messages on Facebook asking me about my Facebook name.

My Facebook name is FION PARIS JACKSON. The title says it all. 

People tend to ask me "WHY do you put Fion Paris Jackson as your Facebook name?" I've been using this Facebook name for 4 years already and throughout these years I received the same question over and over again. So I decided it's time for me to tell you its origin, entirely.

As you all know, Fion is my real name. Fair enough? Originally the Facebook name started off as "Fion Jackson" only. 

I guess you don't have to ask why, the answer is pretty apparent. I won't give you a thunderous applause or whatsoever for getting this right. Yes, I'm a BIG fan of the King of Pop - MICHAEL JACKSON.

Which explains the word "Jackson" in that name. 

BUT...The story doesn't end here. 

So people will say "OMG you chose Jackson over your own surname!" To be honest, I can't help feeling pissed when people shoot this statement at me in front of my family.

As I said, this story is going to be LOOOOONG winded, so brace yourself please~

2009 was a turning point of my life. To be specific, 26th of June 2009, was the real turning point of my life. This was the day I discovered the most beautiful soul on earth - Michael Jackson. Unfortunately, that day was the day of his death. Devastating much!

One of my biggest regrets in my life is not knowing Michael Jackson earlier. Before that day, the only thing that I know about Michael Jackson was his name. THE END. I had never seen his photos before nor listened to any of his music before. The reason why I knew about the existence of a person named Michael Jackson was because Show Lo (a Taiwanese singer) wrote about how he idolizes MJ in his book and I was a fan of Show Lo at that point.

MJ's death was tragic and very quickly, the whole world was reporting the news of his death. TV channels started showing his previous concert videos and music videos; radio stations put on his songs non stop; Internet was full of his news and photos. I was curious: Who is this person? How come his death is an even bigger news than the Olympics and World Cup? Is he really that amazing? Is he really that famous?

So I started to read ALL his news on the papers. And I came across a date. 27th of June 2009. There would be a concert of his showing on TV. I told my mom I wanted to watch it, to see how can a person's death triggered the entire world like this. 

That night, my life changed. I fell for him immediately as he appeared on the screen. Since that moment....Michael Jackson, this name, entered my life once and for all. MJ is the biggest inspiration of my life FOREVER. 

I hate it when people tell me "You have a grammatical error. MJ WAS, NOT IS." 

I hate it. I repeat.

To me, MJ is never a past tense. Have you heard before a saying "A legend never dies"?! Tell me who else can be qualified as a legend if MJ cannot be considered as one!!!

I don't simply idolize MJ. I prefer to use the word "worship". To me, he's the God of my life.

I suppose some of you will be frowning and criticizing me for being so shallow by calling MJ as God (I had enough of this crap...encountered the same thing for so many times ARGH). However, I wanna tell you: I won't and I don't give a damn! "He's just a normal person, you cannot put him parallel with God" or "He's not qualified to be regarded as a God"....Whatever shit like this, I would be really thankful if you just hit the X button on the upper right corner of your computer screen or whatever device you're using as you read this.

I don't care what people wanna say. I know my religion really well. I know what my roots are alright, so PLEASE get a life. It's literally MY OWN BUSINESS to worship MJ like a God. 

This is because I see him like an angel who was sent by God to heal this wounded planet. But now, he's gone. It took me quite a long time to comfort myself and tell myself that everything's alright and I shouldn't be shedding a tear over his death anymore. It is the merciless earthlings who didn't know how to cherish him. They hurt the angel. They squashed his wings. That's why God had no other alternatives but to retreat his angel back to heaven. In fact, I should be thankful that my beloved angel is now peacefully in heaven. This is the reason why in my heart, I put MJ parallel with God. He belongs to God's side anyway. 

I am sure some of you might be thinking how crazy I am at this point. Nevertheless, I have to pinpoint: don't judge people, not until you know everything about them or attempt to know at least something about them. You can't judge one person without knowing the story behind them. You really can't. This is one of the lessons I learnt from MJ. Before you hate me for loving MJ, or hate MJ himself, go and figure out about him and about me too. Don't judge. Judging only shows how shallow minded one can be. Mark my words.

Why do I see MJ as such an important inspiration of my life? Because after getting to know more and more things about him, my life changed dramatically. In a good way. Let's put aside about how groundbreaking his music works are, that's a fact which nobody can ever deny, I shall talk about things that people don't know. How important MJ is TO ME!

I used to be a typical kind of girl who's like one of those bitches from Mean Girls back then. I wasn't at all thankful for the things I had in my life. I complained every single day for not having the things that I wanted. I ranted about nearly everything everyday. I talked shit about people and criticized everyone and everything as long as they weren't the way I wanted them to be. I was heartless, as cold and emotionless like an iceberg. In short, I was a bitch who cared about nobody and nothing but herself. That was me 4 years ago.

After knowing MJ, I started to learn more and more about something called L-O-V-E. This is one of the important things that I learnt from loving MJ. 

LOVE is a very simple word. Even a kid will know how to spell it. However, in my opinion, there's no one fixed or exact definition for this word. This 4-lettered word is more than just a word. It is an element, I shall say. I don't think I can explain this element very clearly because this is something you have to FEEL from your very inner self. Love is just like air. It's always around us. The only issue is whether you realize its existence or not. 

MJ once said, "If you enter this world knowing you are loved and you leave this world knowing the same, then everything that happens in between can be dealt with".

It was this quote that hit me in the head like a hammer. At that point, I realized how blessed I was. I was surrounded with love. Love is in the air, you can take that quite literally, I'm not at all exaggerating. Yet I was complaining as if everything and everyone around me was made of shit. I really was a blessed bitch. Although I didn't have the most up-to-date mobile phone in class, although I wasn't the prettiest girl nor the slimmest, although I wasn't born in a filthy rich family, I was born healthy, both physically and mentally, and I had a place where I could call home. I had family members and friends. I didn't have to starve, I didn't have to suffer from illnesses, I didn't have to beg for money by the roadside. Shamefully, I didn't know how to appreciate all these things. I took them for granted. Like I said, I was an ungrateful bitch. 

Since then, I realize I shouldn't be a bitch like that, it would be a waste of this planet's resources to make a bitch so blessed. I stopped being a bitch and started to appreciate the beauty of life. 

I don't have Prada bags like my friends do, but I'm grateful because at least I have arms and shoulders that allow me to carry a bag. Even though it's just my 5 dollar handbag. 

I don't have iPhone 5, but I'm grateful because at least I have iPhone 4S. 

I don't have a hell lot of pocket money to squander like my friends do, but I'm grateful because my mom gave me the privilege to study in Australia, which costs like a bomb. Nuclear bomb in fact.

I don't have branded clothes, but I'm grateful because at least I have nice clothes to wear. 

I don't have family members who will treat me like a princess, but at least I do have them around all the time.

When you have felt love within you, then it's the time to extend love to the others. Regardless of how people treat you, always treat them with love. 

If love could be labelled as a product for sale, MJ should definitely be its ambassador. Nobody does it better than him or even near him.

In a world filled with hate, we must still dare to hope. In a world filled with anger, we must still dare to comfort. In a world filled with despair, we must still dare to dream. And in a world filled with distrust, we must still dare to believe.  

You know why? Because It's All For L-O-V-E. 

It really breaks my heart when people get so ignorant until they choose to believe whatever they see on the news. Just because something is in print, it doesn't mean that they are factual at all. Who are those people to comment this and that without knowing the real situation! Scandals you call it. People belive in that. You might think that celebrities should be surrounded by scandals as if it is their nature, but please don't forget, celebrities are humans too. They have feelings. They cut and bleed. I know there are like TONNES of completely ignorant and shallow minded people out there (I'm NOT sorry at all for pinpointing out your shame in that statement IF you really are one of those people) who think MJ's a phaedophile. WHY PEOPLE BELIEVE IN THAT SHIT ANYWAY?!?!?!

It just doesn't make any freaking sense to me!!!!!!!!!! WTF!!!!!!!!!!!!!

You have to know something before you act like a Mr Know-It-All:

MJ donated hell lots of money to help people around the world, typically children in need. He even set up organizations and donated the money he earned from his tours. He loved children from the bottom of his heart.

Since you have the eyes to believe what you read on the press, why not use your eyes to see this?! WATCH THIS!

There are some things in life that just can't be pretended. The love! That's the element!

If MJ didn't really love and care for children, would he have the ability to create such inspiring song? FYI, he wrote Heal The World on his own. Totally hands on. Not forgetting Earth Song, Man In the Mirror, We Are The World and The Lost Children. 

If MJ didn't really love and care for children, would he donate so much money to help them? Tell me, who doesn't love money? If one doesn't really have the sincerity to help, I think that person who rather sleep on a money bed or die in a money coffin than to them donated to the charity.

If MJ didn't really love and care for children, would he willingly open up his Neverland playground for the terminally ill children to play in it? And he even hired doctors and nurses to take care of them.

Real charity is from the heart. I do it quietly.

Sincerity can never be pretended. It's the same as well for love. Things you do from the bottom of your heart, it's visible to the others. 

So, OMFG PLEASE JUST STOP POINTING YOUR FINGERS AT MJ!!!! He didn't do anything wrong. Tell me, since when love is a crime? It never is and it will never be.

Why can't you share your bed? That's the most loving thing to do, to share your bed with someone. You say, 'You can have my bed if you want it. Sleep in it. I'll sleep on the floor. It's yours'. I always give the beds to the company.

If I were to sleep on the same bed with my best girl friend, does that make me a lesbian? If someone were to sleep with his dog, does that mean he is a weirdo? HELL NO! Don't you think it's funny? Just because he's MJ, you think it's rightful to judge him in whichever way you like?

And if he really did something wrong, do you think he would be able to walk out of courts safely?! USE YOUR BRAINS PEOPLE! 

Although there were (still are) many morons accusing MJ for the things he never did, he was never angry. He was never hopeless. 

Try to imagine yourself in this situation:-

You were in a working in a company for a pretty long time. One day, out of nowhere, your boss accused you for theft. Although no evidence could be found at all, everyone in the company started calling you A THIEF. How would you feel? Would you still be willing to remain in the company?

I suppose many of you would choose to resign. I would too. It's not surprising at all.

Put yourself in MJ's shoes. He didn't do the things that the press bullshitted about yet he got accused. People, not from a single company in this scenario, but the entire world pointed fingers at him, calling him names. Where is justice?! 

However, MJ believed in lies run sprint, truth runs marathon. How saint-like could he be? Just to remain quiet because he believed that as long as he didn't do anything wrong, he shouldn't be worrying what people say. This is the reason why I look up to him, not just merely as a musician or singer, but a saint. 

The people that try to hurt me only make me stronger.

He taught me that even though the whole world is against you, even though you are left standing alone, DO NOT LOSE HOPE. 

Moreover, I also admire him for caring for the environment, not just people. This is one quality which you can hardly see in celebs nowadays. It's a good thing to see that more and more celebrities are turning into philanthrophists but how many celebrities would write songs for their album (not for adverts or commercial usage) related to environmental awareness. 

...The planet is sick-like a fever. If we don't fix it now, it's at the point of no return. This is our last chance to fix this problem that we have or it's like a runaway train. The time has come "This Is It". People are always saying... "Oh they - they'll" They Who? It starts with us, it's us. Or else it'll never be done.

MJ DID. Earth Song. Go google that. Listen to every single word. 

Perfectionism is another story itself. I used to be a total slacker and whatever I did I just thought "Ah...What's the reason to do things so perfectly, as long as I get it done then it's more than enough" OMFG! I wonder how did I survived for the previous years. 

After I started picking up the good qualities from MJ, people started telling me perfectionism is actually an illness. Even my mom said so. She was like "Don't seek for perfection, MJ stressed out himself so much because he wanted things to be perfect". Honestly speaking, I don't believe in that NOW. And I'm a gazillion per cent sure that MJ doesn't believe in that too. 

I'll do at least over 100 songs until I come up with about 20-30 that I like, I cipher it down. It has to be perfect.

I love the feeling of I-feel-like-I-have-conquered-the-entire-world when you work on something till as perfect it could be. When I set my mind to do something, I would tell myself that I should work on it till I have no regret. Even I were to look back again after 5 years or 10 years, I wouldn't have the slightest regret in minds. Although sometimes my friends told me that I always give them a heart attack when I set my mind to do something till near perfection.....The only thing I can say is probably "OH WELL" plus an innocent shrug :p

And for the word "Paris" it's just simple. Since MJ's perfectionist, I believe that every choice he made was aiming for total perfection. Thus, he named his daughter Paris. So, Paris is THE perfect name!

If you had read my Liebster blog post, you would've seen that Jxhia asked what name will I give to my baby girl in the future. The answer is Paris. No doubt. My future husband should just deal with that fact.

Seriously, the one and only reason I painstakingly wrote so much about MJ is because I want everyone to know, I added "Jackson" as my surname is because I really really really really really worship MJ. It's more than just a fan girl craze!!! 

I love that nickname so much. And I seriously have no plans on changing it. I'm darn proud to be a MJ fan!!!

Even my electric guitar is named after MJ. It's called Mikey because MJ's nickname is Mike ^^. I even blinged a MJ logo with my own hands.

Acoustic guitar was named after one of the famous MJ's reminder: PEACE. 

I pray for peace all the time.

That's why I love the Peace logo so much. 

My friends ask me since I love K-Pop so much too why do I still want to keep Fion Paris Jackson as my Facebook name. Let me clarify, I love K-Pop, that's true BUT I LOVE MJ THE MOST. As amazing as my other idols are, they are not parallel with MJ. I can't put them up there with him. 

To be honest, if it wasn't for my mom's prohibition, I would've already gotten myself a MJ logo tattoo for my 19th birthday. This is to remind myself of no matter how much hardship I face in life, I should not give up hope. I must have the fighting spirit of MJ!
 
If not a peace logo tattoo, but I don't want people asking me "Why do you have a Mercedes Benz tattoo?" That's an awful remark!

I still prefer that MJ logo! 

I used to have this logo in front of every single textbook in high school, and people know that is mine whenever I trashed my textbook around ><

I sorta come to an ending right now~~

Of course these few thousand words are not enough to summarize my love for MJ, I can really write a novel on this topic, but I guess it's more than enough to tell you the story behind my nickname Fion Paris Jackson already. 

Good night world <3 

PEACE AND LOVE xoxo 

☮ Quote to share:- 

We stand together all around the world, joined in a common purpose to remake the planet into a heaven of joy, understanding and goodness ~Michael Jackson